so far so good

Day 60

Friday. well, today is the perfect day to rest, I'm just hanging out in my room thinking about what i am going to do while I am listening to my IPod. Wow, it’s really hard for me to write if I am not doing anything right now, my brain was still sleeping, my mind were too lazy to find ideas for something to blog about.

Anyway, I don’t care if I can't write a lot today, what I am worried about is my mood, so far my mood is good, I have been doing very well. I’m happy If I can maintain my feelings in the whole day. I really don’t like my mood emotionally unstable. Its freaking me out. I'm so sick if my mood driving me crazy, I always hated myself, I always blaming myself, self pity. And still looking for the darker side of my past. I can't help it.

I love the way I felt today, better than the last three months that I have been struggled. then i got two beers  in a row, just for fun, sometimes i need my mind to get out on the real world, but of course, i love my baby so much, I love her as I always do, I love her that’s why I'm so much depend unto her.

My mood. 5.2/10