20.01.11
The photos was taken a few days back. I took it when i was feelin better. So ive memories to look back. a gift sealed with a kiss to my lovable bella. damn i hate myself. corny....urgh signing off..
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Friday, January 21, 2011
feelin better
Friday, January 21, 2011
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20.01.11
The photos was taken a few days back. I took it when i was feelin better. So ive memories to look back. a gift sealed with a kiss to my lovable bella. damn i hate myself. corny....urgh signing off..
good mood
it was a good day today. My mood is okay. Evrything works fine. Evrything looks good. Evrything goes well. Shes happy. Im happy too. I came back to here.
Because thats my heart says. If i try to leave her it seems i die slowly and its very painful. Now im afraid becaus im an option. I want to forget evrything. I Dont want it to remembr all that desasters last few weeks. It upsets me. I want to live hapy. i need Freedom.
Because thats my heart says. If i try to leave her it seems i die slowly and its very painful. Now im afraid becaus im an option. I want to forget evrything. I Dont want it to remembr all that desasters last few weeks. It upsets me. I want to live hapy. i need Freedom.
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ive done nothing
17.01.11
This is my stupid face after the long fuckin night convrsation. I slept late. I cant get over it.
I cant believe shes chatting with another guy that she found in the chatango chatrom and they moved to yaho mesenger then they see each others face to face video calls.
I felt my heart squezing, its tearing me apart and i cried for it and she had seen my eyes wept between her eyes. She doesnt feel my burden inside. She didnt feel my heartaches. My heart broken into pieces, shes stubing me on my back no mercy.
By the way, Shes not finish yet with her one night stand mate that she dated december 16 2010, i dont know whats hapendto them. I dont know what there setup. she ignored me in that topic.
I am very sad and low, im not feeling beter, i wil not gona feel better til im stil staying here in saudi arabia. I luv my work and am hapy with it. But the problem is i always felin fuckin homesick. I felt so much hate with myself bcoz i cant do anything, its seems that i just let it happened, and i didnt make any moves to stog it. Im a shame to myself. Ive done nothing. Whay me.?
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Saturday, January 15, 2011
i still cant believe it
Saturday, January 15, 2011
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01.15.11
Sleepless night, this is the only one of those days that i was thinking over and over again that she cheated me on Dec 16. 2010. I'm still living on the past. It happens again. I cant believe it that shes done it to me again.
I thought she was changed by the mercy and grace of god. But i don't know how could it happen. Theirs a lot of questions in my mind. And haven't answered yet.
Is she really luv me? Why does shes keep on cheating me. Why She cheat me all the time. I know shes afraid to tel me and tell me the truth. Because if she admit that shes having an affair to David that's the end of it. No regret. Its all over.
BTW, thanks to android i can blog through mobile.
My mood:4.5/10.
Sleepless night, this is the only one of those days that i was thinking over and over again that she cheated me on Dec 16. 2010. I'm still living on the past. It happens again. I cant believe it that shes done it to me again.
I thought she was changed by the mercy and grace of god. But i don't know how could it happen. Theirs a lot of questions in my mind. And haven't answered yet.
Is she really luv me? Why does shes keep on cheating me. Why She cheat me all the time. I know shes afraid to tel me and tell me the truth. Because if she admit that shes having an affair to David that's the end of it. No regret. Its all over.
BTW, thanks to android i can blog through mobile.
My mood:4.5/10.
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