that's all i want

Day 235

Today, I received a threat email, it’s upset me, I can't work well, it keeps me worried. Anyway, I don’t know how he will do it.

But before anything else, all i want is my happiness that I am looking for a long time. I want to be loved for being me.

I want be able to look at myself in the mirror again. I want to see my smile once again. to laugh. to be alive again and...that's all i want.

My mood: 3.5/10.

stressful

Day 234

Tuesday, I am so glad to get home today after a long hours of works, I think my mood might settle down again.

My job today is sooo stressful I want to go home and relax. i feel really tired working long hours. 

i need vacation.

My mood: 5.1/10.

weighed in

day 233

Every day, I ended up eating an egg sandwich for breakfast and coffee, cheese burger at lunch and vegetables and 2 cups of rice at dinner. Now a day’s I’m not having exercise, I stopped playing basketball and bein lazy to goin to the gym. I am hoping I will lose weight, at the moment I didn’t weighed in.

so still I hope I will stay 66kgs. I didn't expect to lose any weight cos I ate too much today... my target weight is 60kgs..

my mood: 2.5/10.