HIV

Whew!!! i know It's been a long time since i wrote a blog about my life as day leaps another day..

So now, im back. but where would i start? I guess i made it already CHEATER and as i am writing this blog.. im sitting here on my bed.. listening to the song that i made and i upload it in youtube and of course it fits my current life..

thinking of what else of to do next... kinda lonely.. remembering the girl i used to love so truly and cheated me a several times before it's already over..the girl who gave me reason to be careful of my heart next time... the girl who wasted my love and trust...

i never thought could be this complicated at very moment.. she cheated with me.. replacing me with a guy that she don’t even know, she just met him only at the pub, grrrr... i wish she acquire HIV.. ohh god.. you may think it's absurd but..i took the pain for almost 3 months in the last time she cheated me... our relationship end up with nothing but lies...

im trying to smile now..im learning more.. im always hurt.. im always left.. i feel so alone..

now, im scared to love again..but who knows? im still young and could find someone better than her..

I guess that i should keep myself busy.. i wanna start a new life without her.

i want to forget my sorrow..and hope things will get better..sooner or later.. cheater! Lier!

my mood: 8.9/10.

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Happy Valentines

Dear xxxx,

Hi! Hello! How are you! Hows my baby doin?! HAPPY VALENTINES!!!!!, I just wanted to do something simple to say, and here it goes, I love you and I want that smile back on your face with so much happiness and love, that love is much truly amazing. For that love I want everyone to know how much you mean to me.

Ever since you have entered my life, I've been flying on the Cloud goes thru the outer space with so much happiness and love, I have not come down yet.( Hahahahaha... addicted with your love, feelin high..)

I will tell you this every day, knowing that you are my wife that will care for the rest of my life, and you are the most beautiful person I know, inside and out and I see it more clearly with each passing day. I love everything about you, about us and what's happening to us. You do something to me that no other has, you have made me so happy and special, and it was happiest I've ever been happen to me. You give me the most amazing feelings inside, the feeling of being so much in love with you.

I still don't know what I did to be so lucky to have you in my life, my dreams come true... I am so thankful though, indeed. In this short time that we've been together, we have grown so much and I can't wait to see what the future holds for us.

I love you, with all my heart and soul, always and forever! have a good day! Happy valentines baby..i love you so much..

Love always,
xxxxx

I knew by the way you looked at me

Dear xxxxx,

Thank you baby for the quick reply from your side, I love you so much, it’s a great message that I could keep as a promised that we will still keep going on in our plans. I always keep on thinking and dreaming about you ever night and day. coz you know from the moment I see you, I knew you were someone special.

I knew by the way you looked at me, talked to me it seems that you are here besides me and you are holding me tight with your love and care.I was afraid to love again... afraid of the pain it might bring. But in a short time, you showed me that real love wasn't painful or deceiving. You showed me that I deserved to be loved and happy.

You gave new meaning to my life and I could never thank you enough for that! You truly are a Godsend to me! I open my heart for your baby.

So, for all you've done for me...
I promise to always be here for you, to cherish you and to love you whole-heartedly. I promise to be a loyal and loving husband for all the rest of my days. I promise to love you always!! I promise that I would never leave you...
I miss you always baby.

Love always,
xxxxxxx

I question things

Dear xxxxx,

Baby you know although sometimes I question things, that out of my knowledge. I love you so much baby. deep inside I know that you are the only one for me. When I'm not with you in phone or at the webcam, you are the only one I'm thinking of.

Everything about you tells me that we can be together forever. Only you can make me feel like time stops when I'm with you soon. Only you can make things better when it feels like the end. Only you can be the one to smooth my fears away. For this I'm grateful and I hope you never leave. I love you. I will marry you anytime you like. Miss you so much.

Love,
xxxxx

I love you with all that I am

Dear xxxxx,

Hi, Baby. thanks for the mail today, you light up my day. Baby You're always lighting up my heart with the things you do and say. I feel so happy just being with you this way. You're my baby, and will forever be my baby.

You will always be the love of my life, and please never give up for us. always have faith in me and you we will gain the greatest gift of all, the gift of hope and love you righteously deserve. Every time I think of you my heart misses a beat. You're my theme or a dream! Every moment we share together we grow closer, even we were just sharing our moments only in the cam, but sooner will be together on April.

I am at work and I'm simply hanging by a moment, waiting to see you again, I know im miles away, but your love and sweet tender wouldn’t fade away from my mind, and every day I wake up dreaming of our time together that I hope it would happen as we planned. I will never forget you. I hope you still think of me too.

I love you with all that I am, all that I was and all that I will ever be. Please know that my love and I are inseparable and I would want it no other way and if time could express my love for you then it's forever and a day.

I can't wait to be with you, see your smile, look in your eyes, feel your sweet touch, hear your perfect words and kiss your perfect lips. The way I feel about you some people call crazy, some call it insane, but I call it true love. I really love you. And im willing to marry you.

Love always,
xxxxxx

please talk to me always

Dear xxxxx,

please talk to me always, if have time, coz sometimes im scared that you don't want me. but i want you. i want you so much in so many ways. i don't want you to slip away from me. i love you. i know you love me too, Please love me always, i'm sorry i am such a jerk for sometimes.

just love me and that is enough for me. you should know that no one makes me happier than you. just the sight of you.... that's all it takes to make me happy. one look from you and my heart stops. when i hear your voice.... calm washes over me. you have a power over me i cannot describe. i love it. i want you. and no one else. don't you know that?

you make me feel like the only person in the room. i have never felt like that before. you are everything i want. you are everything i need. and i have you. i will marry you, i would never forget about that.... take care of yourself always.. I am here always to love you..

Love,
xxxx

“Just love me…”.

Dear xxxxxx,

Good morning! Hi baby! how are you! I hope you’re doing fine, yesterday it was my great day, you contacted me by any means, you do the chat, you do the texting, you do the calls and you do the cam to cam online chatting for me often.

Thank you, coz you are always there for me, you’re not leaving me alone in my room, your presence is being there for me and now I’m seeing your existence in my life, I love you. I always keep thinking about you till now and you are always made me keep on smiling, you put smile on my lips, you made me happy and I felt that you are only just next to me, not so far away. I love you baby.

I miss you! wow baby! yesterday it’s my wonderful day! I felt your love deep in me! something it seems, like your love it’s holding me tight! Yesterday and also it was my great day coz I had it everything that I have been carrying here in my heart for a year its almost gone, I let it out. I and myself set it free, my heartfelt free. IM FREE!!!

I let you come in to my heart and I will do it, I would love to marry you soonest Miss you so much!!!

I know that I am not a perfect person for you, but I will do my best to be a perfect husband for you. I will do my best to pleased you as well. I will taking care of your love and affection, I will be in your side whenever you need me. I will give you all my support and help the that you were expecting to share it for you. thanks baby for the love you just showed it on me. It was really dear indeed.

I just want you to know how much I miss you when I am not seeing you and how much I love you. You are the meaning in my life and make each day I spend with you wonderful and fulfilling. I only wish my job allowed me more time to be with you when we will met each other, I hope it will not be the first and last. You’re killing me! If you will do that…. I love you more than you love me. I know you know what I want too. “Just love me…”. it is really not a hard thing to do.

Thanks for the photos that you are sending and seeing you at Friendster and sharing also your new photos for me last night coz I know, you know that it may help me to ease my loneliness here.

Thank you baby, it really helps me to carry these pictures of you with me wherever I go, but nothing compensates for our not being together. Until I am with you, please accept this note as a promise of my faithfulness and affection. God knows I love you, I love you, I love you, and I love you, I wouldn’t be tired to say it over and over again.

I LOVE YOU

Love,
xxxxx