I MISS MY LIFE

I sat on the couch and then I watch movies till I fall asleep and when I wake up, I’ll just turn on the music and listen to it while Sometimes I do laundry stuff and cleaning the house.

Then if i want to get out just wanna change my environment or somethin’ that I want to breath, or need to inhale fresh air… I ride with my toy and I called him jovenjoshua that’s the name of my toy, his helping me a lot to forget my pain. 

I know it doesn't sounds fun.  

I miss my life that I have been destroyed.

AND I AM LONELY...

I’m still go out in pain

I don’t know what I was thinkin’… it wasn’t part of my plan to visit my blogs tonight... reading my old post make me feel sick… i dont want to write my whining but my mind wants to say somethin’, my heart wants to let go of my burdens… 

Over the years people have come and gone in my life and I have wasted to many years losing the life I was in... I can’t believe it but it was happened with the blink of an eye, it happens so fast. I lost everything… I have loved and lost as so many others. I don’t know when is the time to close that door and open a new one... I am 36 years old now and my life is winding down.

I’m still go out in pain... I want to move forward but I don’t know how… Im freakin’ tired.