Whew!!! i know It's been a long time since i wrote a blog about my life as day leaps another day..
So now, im back. but where would i start? I guess i made it already CHEATER and as i am writing this blog.. im sitting here on my bed.. listening to the song that i made and i upload it in youtube and of course it fits my current life..
thinking of what else of to do next... kinda lonely.. remembering the girl i used to love so truly and cheated me a several times before it's already over..the girl who gave me reason to be careful of my heart next time... the girl who wasted my love and trust...
i never thought could be this complicated at very moment.. she cheated with me.. replacing me with a guy that she don’t even know, she just met him only at the pub, grrrr... i wish she acquire HIV.. ohh god.. you may think it's absurd but..i took the pain for almost 3 months in the last time she cheated me... our relationship end up with nothing but lies...
im trying to smile now..im learning more.. im always hurt.. im always left.. i feel so alone..
now, im scared to love again..but who knows? im still young and could find someone better than her..
I guess that i should keep myself busy.. i wanna start a new life without her.
i want to forget my sorrow..and hope things will get better..sooner or later.. cheater! Lier!
my mood: 8.9/10.