Life is too short...

always say that life is very many things but it is certainly never boring! And it is even more true now - just when I thought everything had settled down, the world up-ended itself. But actually in a good way.

but my life adventure was much like in the sand dune has been, well, a blast. But we all know that once that sand creeps into all the orifices, it just becomes painful.

In the midst of making life-changing decisions about where to work and live, a friend sent me this quote, my best friend.

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't. Believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it."

And that is exactly what my mission will be for the rest my life - taking chances and making them worthwhile!

my mood: 7.2/10

sleepless night

Dearest Marivic,

I really had a sleepless night, moving here and there on my bed and thinking about what happen to us that night. I hope I will not experienced the worst headache ever had again, all I could hear was my heart beating much faster than it ever has. honestly i am more cautious about your heart feelings everyday, because i know i will suffer again, i'm scared. I cursed my stars that night, as my expectation for the night was so much greater, but it ended in a far different way that made my heart choke with tears of losing something I've always fought for.

I know we both said so many things to each other that we least expected, trying to find out the truth about something, it's really hard and needs much time, but I guess I got carried away by saying those words to you. I’m looking forward to forgive me, neither will you forget, but I know deep down in me, I've regretted saying those things to you and being the first guy to have said this to you also hurts me a lot. Whether you accept my apology or not *I'm truly sorry for my harsh and unpleasant words.*

Baby, I love you with all of my heart and all of my soul and I have no regrets for falling in love with you, even being able to feel the magnitude of this love for a second, would have lasted a lifetime for me because it's so strong. Good or bad I am always be with you and I will always love you.

For now, I know sorry is just a word, but for what it's worth I am very sorry for hurting you last night. it caused me pains too but and I'm really confused about everything. I much want things to be stable and that you get all the time you need to make your decision. I love you so much and never will I think that I can forget you.. I remain yours ....

Love always,

Joven

I will always love you xxxx

From: Maria 

Sent: Saturday, August 01, 2009 8:31 AM

To: 

Subject: I will always love you xxxx

Dearest xxxx,

You did not hurt my feeling at all last night.Im so sorry if i confused you last night. I was just tired and didnt think much what youve said. I know i was just a bit lost with our conversation at the end so i just stop ,i just dont want us to end up hurting each other last night.

You know i love you and im always love you no matter what happen . No matter what i feel sad, happy , confused, or scare you are always in y heart and in y mind, and i will always loving you everyday for the rest of mylife. My love for you keeps going strong, deeper, and last a lifetime.

I did already gave you my heart, mind, body, soul, spirit all in all wholeheartedly and it stay like that and will remains like that now and forever. Nobody can take away my love for you. Its you and for you alone that my heart desires and ever longing to be with your loving arms. I feel i can fight everything to stay with you and to love you everyday of mylife. All i feel and think is you , your love to me, and my love for you that i want to give and shoow you all the time as much as i can . You are the only one i will love now and everyday of mylife until forever.

I can still feel the happiness youre giving me everyday and it will last with me a lifetime coz forever im yours and youre forever in y heart.

I will stay focus with you , to \god , and our plan for our future. Im very very to be be your wife. And im very very happy you are my husband.

Thank you so much for everything baby for the love and affection you are always giving me. We are getting closer to our BIG DAY which is our wedding. So please stay calm and relax because i will be there in the church for you to take me forever, im yours.

I love you so much now and foreverxxxxx

I miss you so muchxxx

xxxxxx