sleepless night

Dearest Marivic,

I really had a sleepless night, moving here and there on my bed and thinking about what happen to us that night. I hope I will not experienced the worst headache ever had again, all I could hear was my heart beating much faster than it ever has. honestly i am more cautious about your heart feelings everyday, because i know i will suffer again, i'm scared. I cursed my stars that night, as my expectation for the night was so much greater, but it ended in a far different way that made my heart choke with tears of losing something I've always fought for.

I know we both said so many things to each other that we least expected, trying to find out the truth about something, it's really hard and needs much time, but I guess I got carried away by saying those words to you. I’m looking forward to forgive me, neither will you forget, but I know deep down in me, I've regretted saying those things to you and being the first guy to have said this to you also hurts me a lot. Whether you accept my apology or not *I'm truly sorry for my harsh and unpleasant words.*

Baby, I love you with all of my heart and all of my soul and I have no regrets for falling in love with you, even being able to feel the magnitude of this love for a second, would have lasted a lifetime for me because it's so strong. Good or bad I am always be with you and I will always love you.

For now, I know sorry is just a word, but for what it's worth I am very sorry for hurting you last night. it caused me pains too but and I'm really confused about everything. I much want things to be stable and that you get all the time you need to make your decision. I love you so much and never will I think that I can forget you.. I remain yours ....

Love always,

Joven