come dance with me

Day - 5

Dearest marivic,

Our love started with so much hope, so many dreams. It was like a fairy tale that took us both by surprise. It blossomed into a love that was bonded and true. My Baby Marivic, my heart, my spirit, body and my soul belongs to you. those sweet words from your mouth is a treasure to keep. And now it’s my turn to say with all my sincerity. My baby, My love destiny belongs in your hands.

Our memories are filled with so much joy and so much pain. In my heart I know the joy outweighs the pain. I want to embrace the joy and hold it close to my heart where it can live forever. I want to remember the pain as a lesson, and buried it in the bottom less pit, yet a lesson of how much I almost lost you. A lesson of life to be lived with a memory of how not to be in pain and sorrow. You and I have once more opened the door of conversation and a new beginning. July 5 2009, “Married in spirit”, God bless us, that’s why I am always stay on the line. This journey I ask you to walk with me will be joyous at times and rough. I don't offer you perfection. I offer you me, a man who’s brave enough to fight for our love and I can show you me (the true me).

My dearest marivic, I want to be with you for the rest of my life. I want yours to be the first face I see when I awake and the last when I close my eyes to sleep. The last to hold my hand when I die. I have never doubted my love for you, and have never doubted the love you have for me. How do you think I have survived the last 4 months? I just had to leave it all to God and trust the love in you because knowing that love and not being able to express it or see it in your eyes was creating such sorrow in me. I felt like I was dying inside. Your love has filled me with such warmth, such light, and to not be able to truly experience it was the darkest hour of my life.

I need you. I need to feel you in my arms. You don't know how hard this is to admit that I’ve been far away from you, living here like hell in a zombie town its lots of frustration i hold. however, you know that from the start I haven't admitted needing anyone in so long. It really makes me feel vulnerable. And when you came I know perhaps with your help I won’t have to feel this way any longer. I do need you My dear marivic, as surely as I need to take my next life.

I need us to hold hands and laugh together, love together, and also to cry together. My life is joined with yours, my whole world revolves around you. for the present, for the past and especially for the future. We are separated by so much distance but, my love, you live in my heart. You are never far. All I have to do is think of you that you are here.

I wish I could offer you promises. I wish I could paint a future with no uncertainties. But I have none to offer. I have no idea what the future holds for us. I just know I want us to experience it together. I think it will be an adventure. Even as I write the word adventure I know what it means and knowing so many new memories await.

I am trying to be patient, and you know I'm probably the most impatient person in the world. I don't care how long it takes for us to work this out because I am so sure of the outcome. For me the outcome is a life of happiness.

Please stay with me as you promise, please stay focus as you promise, please come dance with me for the rest of our lives.

Love Always,

Joven