self control..

Day 8

In this Moment, I am safe. I stop what I’m doing, fretting about, worried about, trying to fix or avoid. i think this is the only way i can control myself.

I take one deep breath in, down into my belly. I exhale. I breathe in again. I exhale. I inhale again, and exhale all the air out. My breath finds it natural rhythm and I am now aware of it doing its thing. In and out. In and out. It seems so simple now. All I am doing is breathing and reading.

My body and mind have returned to their natural state. Focused on one thing happening right now, right in front of me, and right inside me.

Everything is okay, everything is alright. There's nothing to do, right in this short moment. Just being here now.

I look around, at this desk, out this window, hearing the sounds around me. In this moment, I am safe. Right now, there is no fear, there is no doubt, there is no threat. Just this very ordinary, somewhat lack-luster experience. That is perfect. There is nothing else it needs to be right now.

So I let go deeper. I let the moment be okay just the way it is. I see that safety is here now, I am safe. I feel my stomach is full, my needs are taken care of right now.

There is calmness as I sip my tea.

When I do, I will be safe, I will be with “it” just like I am with this.

This is the true power of how to control depression, hate and anger.

My mood: 7.0/10