ive done nothing

17.01.11

This is my stupid face after the long fuckin night convrsation. I slept late. I cant get over it.

I cant believe shes chatting with another guy that she found in the chatango chatrom and they moved to yaho mesenger then they see each others face to face video calls.

I felt my heart squezing, its tearing me apart and i cried for it and she had seen my eyes wept between her eyes. She doesnt feel my burden inside. She didnt feel my heartaches. My heart broken into pieces, shes stubing me on my back no mercy.

By the way, Shes not finish yet with her one night stand mate that she dated december 16 2010, i dont know whats hapendto them. I dont know what there setup. she ignored me in that topic.

I am very sad and low, im not feeling beter, i wil not gona feel better til im stil staying here in saudi arabia. I luv my work and am hapy with it. But the problem is i always felin fuckin homesick. I felt so much hate with myself bcoz i cant do anything, its seems that i just let it happened, and i didnt make any moves to stog it. Im a shame to myself. Ive done nothing. Whay me.?

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no more counting days

no more counting days... there is always days for tomorrow...

another day have just passed me by... no more tears... i leave everything behind... thats why i didnt post a blog for a month..

another day gone.,., never to come back.,., another day wasted., and yet to be rested.,., im so frustrated that another day come away., without me noticing it.,. i've done nothing to stop it., ive done nothing to make it somewhat different to the rest of the days that passed me by.,,. i just sit at my work and do the job that suppose to be done.

now writing again here in front of this freakin' computer.,,., i've been here.,., alone.,.without anyone noticing that i've been here,., guess they just don't care.,. sometimes.,.. crazy ideas crept in my mind,.,.

now im okay.. feeling better...

 my mood: 1.5/10

gifted bloggers

Day 113

Today is the first day of nine days holiday’s here in the arab country, and I slept all day.. resting cause I found myself tired working eight hours a day for the whole week, boring... but that’s the way it used to be. Because, there’s no other place to enjoy yourself here, you should live by the rules. So far internet is my gate way of my enjoyment and doing my personal blogs, make fun online. going outside a bit and walked for a change, watching new arrival DVD movies. And that is the way how I finished my everyday living.

however, I've been around, visited other bloggers profiles and blog posting. reading, commenting, and oh gosh, some of them have hundreds and hundreds of comments in one posting. I wonder, how do they do that? How can they get these great stories to blog about? Maybe I'm the one boring, not everyone else. But, I am funny enough, but my blogs quite boring.

yet I like excitement too. I'm pretty much neutral, but my whole life often consists of boring stuff anyway. These bloggers, or as I call them, gifted Bloggers, can top awards if this world's got awards for best blogger of the year or something like that. Being a gifted bloggers must be fun. Actually, I kinda like having people comment on my postings, (even though this is not my first posting I've ever done, other’s always uncommented….shame…).

I guess I just did.... Does that make me an attention seeker? But I'll bet that everyone here wants someone to read their blogs and comment, or else they wouldn't have made a blog in the first place! anyway I know I don’t have the talent to blog, I'm just venting..

Hey! is there someone knows what to chose a good niche to post so each one who read my blogs would spark their ideas in their mind and then they will share it on my comment box?

I hope someone get my attention, and share there thoughts to me....

My mood: 1.5/10

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