fuck up day!

day 206

Well here I am again. Sitting in front of my computer feeling sad nothing to do with myself just think nothing. but  Upset because I don’t even think that i have been played with someone i know i trust, and i treated her so special to me, wheew.. its always been a fuck up day to be. 

I really dont know what shes thinking but i know she's just playing around and i hope this is going somewhere but at the same time i can't seem to let my walls down, nor do i really want to. But it's hard because i feel an uncontrolable attraction. but anyway i know it's always been a fuck up day to me.

my mood: 5.9/10.