locked at the closet

day 187

I wish I could be strong person inside and outside, but I haven’t got it in me since I started to know love, I am always a loser, not even chances to be loved although I know I am losing pride for the one I love the most and I never got lucky.

I can't seem to deal with anything. Not anything, I always found myself locked at the closet till I got slept, with hearth broken, heart has been crush out. No one is here for you. everyone lie’s to you. no one is pure.

my mood: 6.5/10.