Fears

seems that I’ve had dream again the most horrific nightmares I feared last night. it was started to happen since April and May on my last vacation. I had these nightmare all night and it always coming back choking me.

I've had vision of nightmares where it seems myself lossing things i've loved. unmovable, surrounded by fears, watching all happens. In these dreams, I'm frozen and letting the pain do their job without interfering. Even though I'm screaming, my mouth is sewed shut. I can't move a muscle, and no matter how much I want to, I'm stuck, forced to watch the whole scene before my eyes. It was my fear.

And I just want to know when they'll stop hurting me. I'm tired of seeing them massacred my life to no end. I've tried so many things, but nothing seems to work. Guess I'll just have to wait it out, like in the dreams... just wait when it will end and hoping someday all fears will vanish.

My mood: 7.0/10