Saturday, July 18, 2009

The problem is me...

Saturday, July 18, 2009
One minute I am happy and the next my mood just takes a turn for the worse. I've always had trouble with depression but I've been okay for the past few weeks or so (my last really bad breakdown was June 16) until recently.

I have found myself getting into moods where I just want to hurt myself and I can't figure it out why. I know it is take time to heal my wound and now I should have nothing to be upset about. My life is good. I am in love, deeply in love and I have all the friends I need.

Maybe there are things about myself I need to work on. Maybe my life isn't the problem, maybe the problem is me, what I think about, what I feel about. I feel insignificant to the world or to her, and I hate myself more and more each day. but she's always been there to cheer me up. because i know the problem is behind me.

I've always hated myself a little bit but I have learned to find the good in me. But now I am back to the way I used to be and I can't find one good thing about myself. I will do the best I can to move on and don’t look behind that I know we might hurt us both. i know the problem is me.

I just need to accept it and learn how to move forward and dont look back.

My mood: 7.2/10



If you accept that what's done is done, you are left with yourself exactly as you are. You can't go back and change anything, so you've got to work with what you've got. Begin with simple accepting. Accepting is easy because it is exactly what is says - accepting. YOU DON'T HAVE TO IMPROVE OR CHANGE OR STRIVE FOR PERFECTION. QUITE THE OPPOSITE. JUST ACCEPT.

We are going to accept the way we are, initially , and then build on that. What we are not going to do is beat ourselves up because we don't like some bits of ourselves. These doesn't mean we are happy with everything about ourselves. We have to accept that we are what we are ; the results of everything that has happened. It all just is. You, like me, like all of us are human. That means you're pretty complex. That's what makes a human being so wonderful, the complexity. None of us can ever be perfect.Don't beat yourself up. Pick yourself up and start again. Accept that you will fail from time to time and that you are human.

I know it can be hard sometimes but once you have picked up and accept, you're well on the path of improvement. Stop picking faults with yourself, or giving yourself a hard time. Instead, accept that you are what you are. You're doing the best you can., so give yourself a pat on the back and press on. WELL DONE!

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