Tuesday, July 21, 2009

I am so scared.....

Tuesday, July 21, 2009
i just want to have one more journal before i went home, but my time is running out. and im Not even sure what I am going to write. i Just grabbed the keyboard and started typing. I need to distract myself from my itchy thumbs, craving to send her message. I have had my cel phone in front of me all day. I will go as far as typing out an entire text and then watch the time goes by.

Whhhhyyyy????? Seriously. I know what I have to do. I know the plan. Everything inside of me is telling me to text her. EVERYTHING! I miss her being a part of my every day life. I miss being a part of her. I want to know how her day went and tell her how horrible mine was.

I miss my baby so much. I miss talking to her. I miss her funny laugh. I miss her smile when she's smile at me. We laughed all the time. but we should admit that shit happens sometimes. and It ruined all the plans, the relationship and thinking there could be more. I am so scared that it wont go back to normal.
I am so scared that we will never have what we once had before. I am so scared ....that no matter how much time I give her....she will not gonna be mine.
My mood: 7.0/10



I am yours and yours alone. I am yours and will be yours now and forever. Nothing could changed that. I am your baby and will always be your baby now and forever. I gave you all my heart, my mind, my body, my spirit, and my soul. Im giving you my whole life and trust. You are my life and my everything. We were married in spirit already, we are one. You just have to believe and trust im yours. Without trust it can kill the relationship. Love will find a way. Im fighting for you and our love. Im always here to love you, to care for you, to understand you, to support you, and to comfort you all the time.I am always be with you . I am yours foreverxxxxx

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