my mood swing...

Day 58

I don't really feel like writing today, but I thought I should at least write a little something.

So anyway, today I had a short day at work. Again I woke up late, bcoz last night i'd slept at around 11:30 pm, it was late in the evening while i was talking to Marivic. But, anyway I had a surprisingly good time talking to her.

Now I'm back at work and I am in a less than good mood. I just feel like for every "good" day/time that I have, I am force to pay for it by suffering through a bad day/time. There is never one without the other. I really love having a good time mood.

sometimes I can't handle my mood swing anymore. I feel so crazy. I am always so up and down, it’s horrible. I seriously don’t want to feel like I am losing my sanity. I know what I want or what I need. I don’t want to be so confuse about everything, especially what I'm feeling. There are thoughts racing through my mind, I don’t want to feel like I'm going to explode. I can't do this anymore. I know I can handle my mood swing.

I don’t want to feel so lost in myself and in this life. I have to control over my emotions, in fact I can control my emotions. Everything is so intense. Because otherwise if my emotions controls my mood, It will hurt me so bad, again I will be on the past, and I will not going back to it anymore, I don’t want to destroy my relationship with her.

perhaps it just me..

My mood: 4.3/10