what am I thinking?

Day 62 – part 2

I am not feeling the job situation. I wish i could go home early. So here I am again thinking, which is never really a good sign for me. It never seems to lead to anything positive thought.

what am I thinking? I've been thinking though, more so wondering. I guess I'm looking to see if anyone else has the same thoughts as me. Let me begin by first stating that I don't necessarily want to kill myself.  I'm more... I have vivid flashes of things happening to myself from the past, and where to put my thought. i know that it just happened, i can not do anything about it, i cant change the past, but It just a few tablets from my sleeping pills and it’s all done. All will goes out...

I’m concerned though, because... it does scare me. I’m much scared of everything that it would come to nothing for what I had dreamt. It so sad.

my mood: 6.5/10